he is gone, just like that. rly rly miss him so much. have not done enough have not done my part, a part of me still grieves so badly though I know he is in a btr place. cld have done so much more but did not have a chance to. so grieved so sad so hurting so much missing much what can do if only cld take things back in time dreamt I knew this day wld come but its just too soon, so pls treasure those ard u
Feeling rather crappy the past few days- the truth that I am just not good enough sinks in and I just feel like shit recently. first its the reality of them+g+ than people love putting me down. makes me feel so insufficient. all the insecurities placed on the platter- am not pretty,skinny,talented,smart,capable or simply not good enough. not up to the expectations nor standards of the ppl around me. a slap to my confidence. what has happened to the once cocky, confident girl who believed that everything was within her reach, as long as she wanted it. you are just an object in this world. you circle the world it does not circle around you. the painful realisation that one has to live in, or @ least awaken to.
I guess this is pretty much it. or rather forget it. things are not and never gonna be the same ever again. I dont know you. at least not anymore.why the heck am i even getting emotional here. causing my entire mood and apetite to be ruined. perhaps things are just not ending on a good note. i dont give a shit if you read this even if u did pretend that you never we are pretty through here. you take no initative in patching things up u have become an insensitive unxaring indifferent judgemental jerk. u simply dont bother huh fine so do i not than outta here doubt we will be speaking for awhile. bye bestie
Tell me what u want what u rly rly want. rly do not understand why this is even an issue tell me if u do not want to be friends anymore because I will understand if u choose to walk away. what I cannot understand is why must ppl be so negative forward looking no? isn’t it better that way. Y even create an issue out of it and is it my fault for all these. I don’t feel that it is. I know where u are coming from but Y has this even become an issue in our friendship. I feel saddened, saddened by the fact that I have lost a friend, yes gained something else but won’t it all have been better if we were back to the start. if there is something u wanna tell me do it Y does things alws land up in this state most of all Y am I tearing whilst writing this. I don’t understand what went wrong. tell me won’t u.
I wish things were much simpler, i think i am really such a insensitive person. idk why but i seem to be pissing off most of the people around me. for not being able to give that much time or portion of me, sorry. sorry. sorry.
